It hit me.
Today, it hit me hard.
School is starting soon and I'm doing 4 BRAND new things...it's my 3rd first year....there is this sudden urge to go hide under a rock and breathe really really fast.
I feel a panic attack coming on....literally....
Today was full of whirlwind things. I had to move things to my other classroom, where I realized (and was told) that I need to figure out what I'm going to do with all of my "normal" classroom things so I will make room for the Spanish stuff. I have no clue what I'm going to be using during the school year. I might need my left over lion's mane and my Hawaiian hat. At the same time. Who knows! Then I asked when Volleyball started and she told me. The second day of school. I got this panicky look on my face and then was told, don't worry, the season will be over so fast that you won't have time to realize you're overwhelmed.
What a comfort.
It's too late! I'm overwhelmed already. 10 classes of Spanish (2 times a week), 6 classes of computer, and 8th grade History. Where do I even begin??
Tomorrow Erin and I have decided to put the idea of school off ANOTHER day and go for our last fling at the pool. Then a trip to IKEA with the new roommate Wendy and her parents, for some needed furniture and some therapy for Erin and I.
It's so easy to say, Oh yah, I trust that God will give me the strength to do this, sure! It's NOT so easy to actually TRUST and remember that you have chosen to TRUST.
Please Lord. Calm my anxious heart. Help me to breathe.
3 comments:
Abigail, I feel your pain and will pray for your calmness when I pray for my own. This is my 6th first year. Every year there's some new change - the structure of my job, my assistants, my room. I got an email today that my assisant might be changing, beside the fact that my room has to be unpacked from painting, and I'll be teaching younger kids in half-day instead of older kids in whole-day....YIKES! But, by the end of September we will both be saying "What was the big deal, I love this challenge!"
all i have to say is that i love you. and so does God. :)
~amy~
I've been there too - stressed about starting a year's teaching. It is amazing what God sees you through, and you realize afterwards. Blessings.
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